http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/en-EUhttp://backend.userland.com/rss092http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/3b/b19fd812815453c270882c93ebc401_160x200.jpg <p>yesterday as you know i had a lot to think about. my life, my family and my love life. i have decided not to tell william that i love him because i dont want to lose him. but if he is really going to run a mile then i think that he is pafetic. and that is to all men out the there who feel the same.</p> <p>i went to work yesterday and had a good look around me, there is nothing at the resturant for me. my dad owns it. i feel like i just get bonuses because im family. i actually do want to work for what im going to achieve. i dont want to take over a business that is already going. i want to start up my own business and prove that it can be succesful. </p> <p>i didnt see william yesterday, i needed some time to think about my next move. when i got home, i started looking at college courses. i need to start my education now if im going to achiveve what i want to achieve. ive decided i am going to tell my dad im not running the business for him tomorrow and then im going straight on thephone to the college. </p> <p>but thats tomorrow............so today ive decided im going to have the day off because i nio longer work there, (it feels good to say that lol). i just thought id pop in and fill you in on my feelings. im off to williams now.</p> <p>cya xxxxxxxxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/28/title~1990158/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/28/title~1990158/Wed, 28 Mar 2007 10:25:58 +0200 <p>hey all. how are you??</p> <p>my friday was a very relaxing day with a early night. still amazed by how amazing the opera was. </p> <p>i then got up early saturday to go to work. i dont usually work early, but i had friday off and i wanted to go home early to get ready for my date, with william.<br> so i was back at 4pm and ready by 6pm, us girls have to pamper ourselves.<br> william was round at half 6. we went to a resturant for a meal, and then it was back to mine for the dessert lol</p> <p>woke up sunday morning fairly late, william was still here, niether of us had to work. we just stayed in bed all after noon. we got up at aboput 2pm. we had lunch in a nice cafe and then we went to the pictures. there was hardly anyone in there. so it was quite nice.<br> after that we went back to mine but he didnt stay.</p> <p>monday i got up, wet shopping with the girls, went to work and then back home again, by that time i was knackered and went straight to bed. (i didnt see william that day).</p> <p>woke up this morning bright and early from my early night last night. just thinking about life and how everything is changing. </p> <p>can i tell you a secret?...........i think i love william. but is it to soon to tell him??? he hasnt said it to me!!!<br> even though i feel like this, i still feel my life is missing something. i just go from work to william.<br> i would like to go back to college and have some more free time. but my dad wont let me, i have to join the family business. i feel sooo stuck. </p> <p>ADVICE????<br> lv sacha.xxxxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/27/title~1983408/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/27/title~1983408/Tue, 27 Mar 2007 09:33:36 +0200 <p>hey all. just to let you know, wen u leave coments let me know how u are. i like to catch up.</p> <p>so how is every1??</p> <p>mu suprise date with william was great. we went to london to this amazing theatre to watch the opera. (he is a great opera lover). ive never really liked opera but when you see the show it is amazing!!!!</p> <p>well we stayed overnight in this amazing hotel, in a massive room. it was great!!!! (i wont give you all the deatils).</p> <p>the shame was we couldnt lie in though, we had to drive all the way back. but at least it got me out of work today. (im so glad my dads the boss). </p> <p>we were back at 12pm and william had to leave straight away, but i aint depressed. i got last night to think of lol. </p> <p>guna relax now and think of william and all of you lol. </p> <p>remeber let me know how you are???</p> <p>lv sacha.xxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/23/title~1960310/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/23/title~1960310/Fri, 23 Mar 2007 14:58:00 +0100 <p>hey. yesterday was also another bad day. i didnt end up going to work i came down with a cold. so i phoned in sick. i spent all day in bed watching the tele and eating toast. praying to get better. </p> <p>william phoned me and he was going to come over but i didnt want him to catch nothing, so we just talked on the phone insted. </p> <p>i was asleep by 8pm. it was the best nights sleep ive ever had. </p> <p>woke up this morning feeling fine. gota work from 12pm til 5pm and then il be getting ready to go out with william.</p> <p>he wont say were hes aking me but he said i should were a smart dress. oooooh it gives me a few idieas. so now i gota rumage through my cupboard for a sexy but smart dress.</p> <p>i cant wait!!!!!!!!!<br> so hows every one going????<br> if anyones interested its the season finale of skins tonight. il have to make sure i record it.</p> <p>reply soon bloggers. lv sacha.xx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/22/title~1951967/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/22/title~1951967/Thu, 22 Mar 2007 10:33:04 +0100 <p>yesterday was a terrible day. as you know i was going to see my family, but half way there the car broke down. so i had to ring the AA and then i had to get to a garage as soon as possible because mt tank was empty, and i neeaded the toilet. when i got ther the drive way was full from visitors cars, so i had to park half way down the street and it was pouring down of rain, so i got soaked. </p> <p>my sister and nephew were fine thogh and my mother and her pregnancy were going great. left early though i couldnt wait to get back to a nice warm bath.</p> <p>when i got home there was no burgular but oh well. i invited my best friend over and we had ice cream and watched the note book!!!!! lol. its soooo sad.</p> <p>i was crying really bad lol. and then just as olivia left william came round, i had to quickly dry my eyes and reaply my makeup lol.</p> <p>well we just chatted and he asked me how my day was then he said he had to go home because he had a lot of work to do. he just wanted to check in on me!!! lol</p> <p>woke up this morning at 7am, i think im setting myself a new record, for the earliest i can wake lol. aint got to work til one so im here til 12, someone help me hav fun!!!!! lol</p> <p>lv sacha xxxxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/21/title~1944837/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/21/title~1944837/Wed, 21 Mar 2007 10:11:14 +0100 <p>hey all, wots bin happenin?</p> <p>as you know friday was my big romantic date, we had an amazing time. then it was back to mine for more go slow, lol. he left once again at 2am. (nothing happened.) </p> <p>saturday me and william went for a picnic but i went home alone because he had a big family dinner. so i spent the rest of the night thinking about him. (sounds like a boring day but i very much enjoyed it.)</p> <p>sunday i decided i was going to do some spring cleaning, it was a nice sunny day (until all the hail) well i wasnt cleaning while that was happening. because half way through my spring cleaning willim came round. we made dinner together and then finally we stopped going slow. dont mean to brag but it were amazing!!!!</p> <p>woke up monday morning and william was still here. he made me breakfast in bed!!! then he had to leave for work, as did i. </p> <p>work was good, the day went fast and i made everyone jealous with my week end fairy tale lol. when i got back i thought someone had broke into my flat, the door was open and i could hear someone inside. when i got in i realised it was william, he had made me a romantic meal. the meal wernt to good,<br> (he should leave this to the chef ME) but the afters was great, if you know what i mean lol. </p> <p>well once again i woke up this morning with william making me breakfast hes such a MAN lol. wel hes only just left for work, but i felt i had to come and give you all the gossip. </p> <p>ive got the rest of the day off, but im gooing down to see my sister and her baby, and im going to check in on my family, see how my mothers pregnancy is going.</p> <p>i hope i have another burgular tonight lol!!!</p> <p>lv sacha xxxxxxxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/20/title~1938050/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/20/title~1938050/Tue, 20 Mar 2007 10:16:14 +0100 <p>hey all whats happening?</p> <p>my wednesday night was good, as you know i went out to party, and i was very much looking forward to going, especially as william was going!!!!!! we had a good time. the group i mean, me and william are still taking it slow. woke up thursday with a hangova and was working early that day. had to drag meself out of bed. but the day went fast and i was home before i knew it feeling very much awake.</p> <p>so i was sat there with nothing to do when william rang me. we went out for a meal, and he asked if he could tell hes friends i was girlfreind, so i said yes. (sounded much more romantic at the time). we went back to mine, and he left at 2am. but dont worry nothing happened we are still going slow. </p> <p>havent had to work today, but ive just got back from shopping with the girls, had to buy something new for my date with william tonight. im really excited!!!!!!!</p> <p>I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER IL BE ABLE TO GO SLOW FOR!!! lol (funny thing is im the one who said lets go slow).</p> <p>lv sacha.xxxxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/16/big_news~1915836/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/16/big_news~1915836/Fri, 16 Mar 2007 15:29:06 +0100 <p>hey all</p> <p>work was crap last night, i usually hav a laugh with every 1, but no1 seemed in the mood, it really got me down. so i was glad when i finished. i went to tescos to finally get some food, so that i could finally feed myself. then it was back home to see what was on sky. </p> <p>not much happening this morning. woke up early again, been doing that a lot lately and i dont know why, but i never feel tired so i may as well get up. aint gota work till later again so ive got nothing to do now. already got my food lol. </p> <p>the girls rang me las night so were all going out to a new bar tonight with a few lads, especially my favourite one lol.</p> <p>well not much happening now il be here for a while lol.<br> lv sacha.xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/14/title~1901777/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/14/title~1901777/Wed, 14 Mar 2007 11:08:13 +0100 <p>well from my last post you can see that every thing is goin well, i was just waiting for that call, lol. but last night i got the call, well at about 6pm, but i was still at work. so we arranged to meet after work. </p> <p>he called round for me at 11pm and we went to the pictures!! it was nice to relax and have fun again. we went to see a school of scandal i think its called. it wernt a very good film, but i didnt take much notice. </p> <p>I WAS TO BUSY HAVING THAT FIRST KISS!!!! LOL</p> <p>well after that he walked me home and that was it, he didnt come in and i wasnt that bothered, we are still taking it slow. but i gota say that i now love mondays!!!!</p> <p>well anyway my night was good, and thats what im really trying to say.</p> <p>well anyway ive woke up early this morning with a smile on my face ready to start the morning early. and i find a tex saying goodmorning. that he sent me at 6am, he gets up early to go running. but i dont mind, it shows hes thinking of me lol. </p> <p>well today ive got work and i must remember to buy food to feed myself.<br> lv sacha.xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/13/title~1895617/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/13/title~1895617/Tue, 13 Mar 2007 10:30:13 +0100 <p>hey bloggers</p> <p>i dont know about you but my weekend was great. the girls night on friday was very good. we went to a few bars and just had a lauhg, there was about ten of us. it was great, then in the last bar we got chatting to a few lads. they were quite cool and didnt seem to exspect nothing from them. i got chatting to one of the lads called william, and we made a real connection. before i went home he gave me hes number and that was it. as i said fun without having to make out with any one. lol.</p> <p>well saturday was my hangover day, didnt get up till lunch time, called in work sick, and then went to bed ealry. but it was still a nice day, i wasnt sick, so i had a relaxing day. </p> <p>sunday how ever i was up early with another free day. (i dont work on sundays). well i had nothing to do so i rang william and asked him if he would like to meet for lunch and he agreed. we had a nice lunch and then we just walked and talked. and that was it. he wlaked me home and then asked if he could see me again. he said he would give me a call sometime. and that was it.</p> <p>were taking it slow, but i would still like that first kiss, not rushing it thou lol. but it was very nice to be respected. now i shall have a smile on my face at work today.</p> <p>im just waiting for that call.<br> sacha.xxxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/12/a_very_good_weekend~1889931/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/12/a_very_good_weekend~1889931/Mon, 12 Mar 2007 11:19:53 +0100 <p>today is a new day. and i wud like to let you all know that in 8 months i will be getting a sibling. i was shocked at first but now im excited and cant wait. </p> <p>this morning i woke up feeling very fresh and alive, i cant wait to get the day started. last night i fell asleep at 10pm watching chitty chitty bang bang lol.</p> <p>got work today, but im getting off early to get ready for my girls night out tonight. still saying it is going to be a night of fun without boys. but still hoping every one is praying i keep to that lol. </p> <p>well thats all for now. speak to you soon. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/09/a_new_day~1873797/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/09/a_new_day~1873797/Fri, 09 Mar 2007 11:23:55 +0100 <p>......it has been a fairly normal day been awake since 7am thou, feeling rather tierd now, and ive got to go to work tonight. well last night i was in bed at 9pm, there was some crap on sky and then i dozed of. woke up to the birds singing lol. </p> <p>not sure what im goin to do for the rest of the day, well till 4pm. not looking forward to work have a headake already. </p> <p>well ive been browsing the web today trying to find something interesting, i dont no what i just feel like i want to buy something lol. </p> <p>all of the sadness is nowe out of my life, i can finally move on. cant wait till tomorrow, hitting the town for my best friends birthday, fun without boys is the new rule. </p> <p>every one pray i stick to it lol. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/08/today~1867577/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/08/today~1867577/Thu, 08 Mar 2007 10:22:23 +0100 <p>today has been a fairly normal and relaxing day. no work today so i decided not to get up till 11am. and i am still very much injoying the single life.</p> <p>my cousins 30th party went very well last night (well that is what i was told), i didnt actually go. and i aint really bothered. im no longer a party drinking girl 24/7, ive decided to take it easy. </p> <p>well now i have nothing to do, no one to see and im rather thirsty after eating my very dry chicken. didnt feel like being a good chef today. if you try really hard a professional can still mess up lol. </p> <p>i just hope the summer comes soon!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/07/still_relaxed~1862568/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/07/still_relaxed~1862568/Wed, 07 Mar 2007 14:32:44 +0100 <p>wel i aint been in all the time lately. ive had a lot of work to do and i just completely forget about my blog. but when i can i will post a new blog. but for now i will not be posting every day. </p> <p>wel now im here ill fill you in on nothing. there is nothing happening in my life.<br> im going to my cousins 30th birthday party in gloster tonight, hes hired a club and were guna have a rave lol. so hopefully things will start looking up for me from then on.</p> <p>im still single and very much enjoying it after whats happened in the past, but theres no need to bring that up now. </p> <p>im very confused. ive bin watchin prison brake and i brought the first season on dvd but its just mind bogaling. i cant see how this thing is guna end. people are just dieing every were. there will be no cast left soon. </p> <p>well thats me for today. see you all again soon.xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/06/letting_you_know~1856108/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/03/06/letting_you_know~1856108/Tue, 06 Mar 2007 12:06:55 +0100 <p>jus to let you know i have now changed my last name from loveridge (my fathers last name) to western (my mothers maiden name). before all of the drama happened (that i wrote about in my previous post) i had a big argument with my dad because i took my boy friend to meet my parents and they did not like him (they dont like any one thou) and my dad had a big argument in front of me, my mother was ok say i decided to take her name (it was a pointless argumnet now that you know weve broken up). so i went down to the place were you change your name (im dumn forgot the place????) and took me mothers name). just thought i would fill you in incase you were wondering. </p> <p>so how is every one anyway??????<br> love sacha xxxxxxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/02/20/get_a_clue~1773536/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/02/20/get_a_clue~1773536/Tue, 20 Feb 2007 15:29:02 +0100 <p>.....it’s been a very long time no see. Theres bin a lot going on in my life so I would like to apologise now for not being here. So how is every one doing????</p> <p>Well me and my boyfriend broke up yesterday so I thought it was finally time to come back to the world of blog to console myself. The last 3 weeks have been hell for me, and it put a very big strain on our relationship because we had only just begun. </p> <p>First my sister was rushed to hospital because ever since her baby was born she has not been feeling well. She don’t eat, she don’t sleep and most of the time she just sits at home staring into space waiting for the babies feed, I have to admit thou that she is still a very good mother to her children. Well the doctors said she was dehydrated and needed lots of rest and time away from the children, so I had to rush all the way to Manchester to see her, and lucky me volunteered to look after the children untill she gets better, so that her husband has time to wait on her hand and foot. </p> <p>But I couldn’t cope so I was always asking for help from my boyfriend- the first strain on our relationship. If it wasn’t to do with the children then I never saw him- the second strain on our relationship. Finally my mother and father cam back from Dubai on the soonest flight they could get since hearing the news. They promptly came the next day after visiting my sister to pick up the children, leaving able to return to my old life. </p> <p>Then two days later I was at work after my 5 days off (loving my job, pays great and ive got a whole new wardrobe, hoping for a promotion soon), I was thinking about the night to come with my boyfriend, (a very romantic one indeed), and I got a call. </p> <p>I had to rush from Birmingham to London hospital were my granddad was rushed to hospital, stuck in 2 and a ½ hours of traffic I arrived at the hospital just in time to say goodbye. And at 5.36pm my granddad finally passed away after 11 years of battling cancer. The of the week on the run up to the funeral as you can imagine was a very upsetting, sad and depressing time. I just wanted someone to lean on and here me cry. My family could not deal with my pain, they had there own. My friends did what they could, but to me it was not enough. And my BOYFRIEND popped round once to give me a bar of chocolate, witch when he left 10 minutes later because he didn’t care about my pain, I threw it out of the window hoping it would land on his head. </p> <p>He did ring me an hour later to see how I was, protesting that the chocolate bar NEARLY landed on his head, and every word he said all I was thinking was why didn’t it!!!!!!! But obviously he talked me round to forgiving him.</p> <p>The funeral was the day before Valentines Day, every thing was beautiful a real shrine towards his memory. All of his family were there, even people he hadn’t spoke to for years hoping to make things right, we were very glad of this. Luckily I persuaded my boyfriend to cope but he kept his distance and drank when ever possible, so I told him to leave, but we left it on a good note.</p> <p>The next day was my final day of not having to work, (my boss gave me 9 days off of work). The next day was also valentines day, so as my grandma wanted and as my granddad would of wanted I decided to enjoy the day, finally to have something positive happen.<br> My boyfriend came round early in the mourning also having the day of to so that we could bond after the 2 weeks of pain. I had him a card and a diesel t-shirt, he got me a card, a big box of chocolates, a giant teddy bear and an all saints belt. I was still in bed so he made me breakfast in bed, (and obviously made some for himself so he could relax and join me in bed). We relaxed and sat talking for 2 hours, then he said I had to get up and dressed because he had an amazing day planned for me. He said I should wear something casual and pack something fancy in a case with over night clothes, I was now very anxious to find out were we were going. We drove for 40 minutes to get just outside of Birmingham, to this very nice country like cottage. It was beautiful surrounded by trees and a big lake at the back. He said he’s dad brought it when he was 5 and they had summers here all the time, but hardly any one used it any more. Well we had a picnic then we just laughed and messed about like some one who is very much in love. We had a great day. Then when it started to get dark I changed and we went for a romantic meal at this restaurant in the nearest town, it was very busy but he had booked a private table in the back away from every one else. Halfway through the meal he got down on one knee and I was so shocked (I thought he was going to propose) but he gave me this beautiful solid gold necklace with a beautiful heart shaped diamond on the end, (I would of said no to the proposal but he said he tripped on the floor as e went to hand me the necklace). </p> <p>After our meal we left, went back to the cottage, and then you know what happens next when you’re in love, theres sweet smelling candles about and theres a very comfy bed in the next room. </p> <p>The next few days were normal, back to work, seeing my boyfriend at night and also still trying to get over the pain of loosing my granddad, (but even when im happy im still thinking of him). </p> <p>But yesterday was my day off work, (I don’t work Sundays or Mondays), so at 3pm when my boyfriend got off work I went over to see him, we hadn’t had sex since Valentines Day so we were both very horny. As soon as we saw each other we were<br> ripping each others clothes off, we ended up in the bedroom fully naked but not yet having full sex. When he got up walked over to his cupboard and pulled out a video camera and he said lets make a home video. I was very surprised by this, but I trusted him and I loved a bit of fun. He left the camera on the table and said he was going to get whipped cream. I thought maybe ill record him, so I picked up the camera trying to work out how to work it when I accidentally pressed play to watch the previous film recorded. It was another woman who he had recorded, they were having FULL SEX and the date and time said it was recorded the day of my granddads funeral after I sent him home. </p> <p>He came back into the room all happy and care free with the whipped cream, he stopped suddenly seeing I was watching he’s previous film, I slapped him around the face, smashed the camera off the wall, grabbed my clothes and ran out of there as fast as possible. He didn’t try to explain or come after me, he was just shocked that I had found out he’s secret. As soon as I got home, just incase he didn’t get the message I text him saying it was over, there was no reply back and I was very glad. </p> <p>The feeling of hurt and betrayal was not very good, but I realised I was happy to be single.<br> Now that I have no one to lean on im relying on you bloggers to prove to me that sharing all of my private problems was the right thing to do. I just need help to get over everything.</p> <p>Love me xxxxxx</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/02/20/a_very_long_time_no_see~1772302/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/02/20/a_very_long_time_no_see~1772302/Tue, 20 Feb 2007 11:38:52 +0100 <p>sorry i wernt here yesterday but my older sister had another baby, so i am now a n auntie again to another little boy, but this ones called william. so i went to see them in hospital yesterday, and my other little nephew jason was there crying, because of all the attention the new baby was getting. dont ya love kids!!!!!</p> <p>well im also sorry for the miss understanding in wednesdays blog, i did wake up with my boyfriend even thou he went home with out begging for more, because i rang him an hour later saying i was lonely. </p> <p>well this mourning has been very peaceful, been up since 6am drawing, soon it will be back to work thou. </p> <p>yes i havent been to work for 2 weeks because i quit, because i didnt like the pay but now ive realised that without a job there is no pay. (Ooooops!!!). so now ive got a new job as a junior chef at a very swanky New York style restaurant just outside of Birmingham, I start on Monday!!!!! Well im excited for the pay so I can go shopping again lol, im really not looking forward to working late nights, and having to actually work!!!!! </p> <p>well any way im going back to me drawing, speak to you soon. xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/26/friday_26th_january~1625140/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/26/friday_26th_january~1625140/Fri, 26 Jan 2007 12:09:18 +0100 <p>Well today has been a normal day, no more accidents from the dog, apart from the fact that today I woke up with my BOYFRIEND!!!! </p> <p>Im so excited, every thing is going GREAT for me. I just know it can’t last, but while the happiness is there im going to enjoy it!! </p> <p>When im happy I eat and when im sad I eat, either way I eat a lot, that is why im at the gym all the time to keep my size 8 body (wink wink) Lol. But write now im eating through a big tub of Ben and jerry’s ice cream (cookie dough flavour), and this is because im happy. </p> <p>Write……….. Now ill fill you in on the info from last night (now that James has left) Lol. Well first I was just about to get into a taxi to go meet him at this very romantic Italian restaurant, when he arrived in he’s black Mercedes convertible, with leather seats….. He looked so sexy!!! Well we went to the restaurant were we had our own private table away from every one else, there were candles and wine and some light romantic music in the back ground. A real romantic at heart is what I say. Well I ordered steak with all the Italian sauces (ive never tried them before, so I may as well now), and he had this big plate of like……. Well all different things I didn’t really take much notice of his plate, I was too busy staring into his big blue eyes, lmao. </p> <p>Well when we were finished he said he had another surprise for me so we were driving around for 20 minutes when he suddenly jumped in gladness. We were now is this like hidden country side, and there in the middle hidden by trees and flowers and bushes was this big open hall, and inside was the most amazing art, (see I love art, I study art at college, I love to buy it, paint it and I most defiantly love to look at it). It was so amazing, not what any one would think of as special, but it was so amazing to know he appreciated what I liked, and that he would do this for me, (it almost brought a tear to my eye, but im not that sad don’t worry). Well any way he became so kind of tour guide, (a very sexy one). He took me round telling me information about each one, but every time he would find I knew more then him, (I tried to keep quiet thou, it was he’s surprise). </p> <p>Well after about 4 hours (I would have loved to stay longer) we left, he drove me home, kissed me good night, and left like a gentle men not begging for more, which was surprising but also a good thing (means hell get a treat tonight) lmao. </p> <p>But that’s it, and he was right about what he said, that night was the best night of my life. And yes the dress was worth it. Write im getting back to me cookie dough. Enjoy it till tomorrow lol. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/24/diary_24th_january~1613226/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/24/diary_24th_january~1613226/Wed, 24 Jan 2007 14:37:33 +0100 <p>well i am now starting a diary.</p> <p>today was a very boring day again, until............................................james decided to tex me, (ie. the boy who nearly raped me, but then apologised, we went out on a date, i became hes girlfriend, and now tonight wel be our 3rd date). well any way i was doing my college work and he texed me saying 'i should dress up tonight because hes taking me somewhere special.' so now im really excited, but have nothing to wear. ill have to lend something from my best friend!!!! hopefully shell be in plzzzzz..........</p> <p>then the happiness had to end for something really wrong to happen. i had my out fit laid out on the bed incase my friend was not in. and my dog (a little lush golden retriever, 11 weeks old and as cute as ever) came in and crapped!!!!!!!!! on my clothes!!!!! (i really wish i had a dog who was puppy trained). </p> <p>so i ran to the bus stop and caught that to my local shopping centre, the merry hill. and i was ver so pleased. the lovely green dress with the silk round the bottom was in the sale in diffusion!!!!!! so i had to buy it (it was still £120 thou, i hope tonight will be as special as he says). </p> <p>then as i got back i had 4 missed calls on my answerin fone sayin she had loads of dresses she had hardly ever worn, (we are the same size, but shes picky bout her clothes). i was a bit upset about the money at first, but then i thought i love the dress, and this is our first date since becoming boyfriend and girlfriend so why not make it more special, it all sounds worthit. </p> <p>so i have just had my lunch, (cheese and ham pasta in a sour sauce, sounds wrong but very nice), and washed up now im going to relax.</p> <p>might be back before i leave for my date, but if not youll get all the juicey gossip in tomorrows diary day. </p> <p>love sacha xxx </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/23/diary_23rd_january~1606486/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/23/diary_23rd_january~1606486/Tue, 23 Jan 2007 14:24:47 +0100 <p>Today im moving on with my life!! I am still very upset about the way that my best friend acted but some ‘amazing space guy’ told me I should just get over it, so that’s what I am doing. </p> <p>So last night I went out with a few of my friends for a night of fun. We went to a bar, it was mostly empty and we ordered a couple of drinks, we were about to pay for them when the bar tender said that the man at the end of the bar had already paid for them. So I looked over and it was like heaven sending angles to greet us. He was standing there with 2 other friends, and he was so hot!!! But as I have learned before its not about the looks, its got to be he’s personality that really takes you away.</p> <p>So we all got talking and he seemed like a really amazing guy. Well after a while every one could see the connection we had so they eventually left us alone. We really had a great conversation but soon the bar was closing, I looked around but my friend shad already left with he’s friends, so now I had no way of getting home. So he asked me if I would like to go back to he’s for drinks, and then he would take me home. So I agreed what could be the harm, I was due for a night of fun. When we got back to he’s apartment he was so romantic. He complemented me constantly, he brought out a bottle of red wine, and he put on some romantic music, dimmed the lights and lit some sweet smelling candles. It was bringing this great night to a great end. We carried on talking for a while and then when we had finished the glasses of wine we also finished the next 2 bottles of wine. I was a bit tipsy now and so was he, I knew he couldn’t drive me home now and I had no number for a taxi. So he said that I could stay in the spare room, it was either that or find a nice skip, so I agreed. </p> <p>So he showed me where the room was and just as I was about to go in he called me back, he grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me. It was so passionate and amazing; we were there for 20 minutes at least, deep in a trance. After he left I must have been in bed for about half hour thinking abut what had just happened, when all of a sudden he walked into the room naked!!!!!</p> <p>I was so shocked, I was now staring at him taking no notice of, you know, he’s below area. He came to the bed, jumped on me and started to kiss my neck. I screamed and in he’s amazement he asked what was wrong. I said I wasn’t ready for this, and he apologised. He said he must have read the signs wrong. But I left any way and walked home. </p> <p>But this mourning all I could think about was him, and now im still thinking about him, that is why im writing this. I really did get to know him, and did really like him. I just can’t stop wondering if I did lead him on, and if I should go and apologise????? Im so confused????</p> <p>My like just goes from bad to worse!!!<br> Do you know what I should do??? Im so stuck…. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/18/how_i_tried_to_get_over_it~1573930/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/18/how_i_tried_to_get_over_it~1573930/Thu, 18 Jan 2007 12:17:26 +0100 <p>well anyway we were at subway because the one near me has an internet link because my room mate is always on the internet at home. and i was doing my college work that i had stored on my memory stick, all of my work that i have been doing for the last two years. and in he comes my so called best friend. and he starts messing about so the manager has a go at him, so insted of apoligising he messes about more, so the manager says to me unless i can controll my friend i ahve to leave. i ask him to calm down because i really need to get some work done and he just messes about more. so we have a big row, he steals my memory stick and throughs it in the river. then he has the cheek to come in an act like he never did any thing. </p> <p>i no i should get over it but i still relly miss him. i need someone to tell my problems to. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/17/how_it_all_ended~1570302/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/17/how_it_all_ended~1570302/Wed, 17 Jan 2007 19:31:03 +0100 <p>today was the day that did it all. today was the day i lost my best friend. well at least i thought of him as my best friend. i told him every thing, and im sure he told me every thing as well, now whos going to solve my problems. </p> <p>well we arent always the best of friends were always fighting and hes always taking things from me, he always returns them but that aint the point. </p> <p>but any way when we are alone we always get on, thats were the friend comes in, but hes other personality still pisses me off.</p> <p>well anyway we were at subway because the one near me has an internet link because my room mate is always on the internet at home. and i was doing my college work that i had stored on my memory stick, all of my work that i have been doing for the last two years.......... ill b bk 2 tell u the rest of my problems, i have no1 else now, so dont worry. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/16/the_day_of_all_days~1561741/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/16/the_day_of_all_days~1561741/Tue, 16 Jan 2007 15:36:58 +0100 <p>hey every one!!!!!!</p> <p>im new to blog an i would just like to say hey to you all.<br> so write me back and please some one add me as a friend</p> <p>im so lonely!!!! lol </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/15/title~1557427/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://sacha121.blog.co.uk/2007/01/15/title~1557427/Mon, 15 Jan 2007 14:27:02 +0100