the new chapter!!

sorry i wernt here yesterday but my older sister had another baby, so i am now a n auntie again to another little boy, but this ones called william. so i went to see them in hospital yesterday, and my other little nephew jason was there crying, because of all the attention the new baby was getting. dont ya love kids!!!!!

well im also sorry for the miss understanding in wednesdays blog, i did wake up with my boyfriend even thou he went home with out begging for more, because i rang him an hour later saying i was lonely.

well this mourning has been very peaceful, been up since 6am drawing, soon it will be back to work thou.

yes i havent been to work for 2 weeks because i quit, because i didnt like the pay but now ive realised that without a job there is no pay. (Ooooops!!!). so now ive got a new job as a junior chef at a very swanky New York style restaurant just outside of Birmingham, I start on Monday!!!!! Well im excited for the pay so I can go shopping again lol, im really not looking forward to working late nights, and having to actually work!!!!!

well any way im going back to me drawing, speak to you soon. xxx

Well today has been a normal day, no more accidents from the dog, apart from the fact that today I woke up with my BOYFRIEND!!!!

Im so excited, every thing is going GREAT for me. I just know it can’t last, but while the happiness is there im going to enjoy it!!

When im happy I eat and when im sad I eat, either way I eat a lot, that is why im at the gym all the time to keep my size 8 body (wink wink) Lol. But write now im eating through a big tub of Ben and jerry’s ice cream (cookie dough flavour), and this is because im happy.

Write……….. Now ill fill you in on the info from last night (now that James has left) Lol. Well first I was just about to get into a taxi to go meet him at this very romantic Italian restaurant, when he arrived in he’s black Mercedes convertible, with leather seats….. He looked so sexy!!! Well we went to the restaurant were we had our own private table away from every one else, there were candles and wine and some light romantic music in the back ground. A real romantic at heart is what I say. Well I ordered steak with all the Italian sauces (ive never tried them before, so I may as well now), and he had this big plate of like……. Well all different things I didn’t really take much notice of his plate, I was too busy staring into his big blue eyes, lmao.

Well when we were finished he said he had another surprise for me so we were driving around for 20 minutes when he suddenly jumped in gladness. We were now is this like hidden country side, and there in the middle hidden by trees and flowers and bushes was this big open hall, and inside was the most amazing art, (see I love art, I study art at college, I love to buy it, paint it and I most defiantly love to look at it). It was so amazing, not what any one would think of as special, but it was so amazing to know he appreciated what I liked, and that he would do this for me, (it almost brought a tear to my eye, but im not that sad don’t worry). Well any way he became so kind of tour guide, (a very sexy one). He took me round telling me information about each one, but every time he would find I knew more then him, (I tried to keep quiet thou, it was he’s surprise).

Well after about 4 hours (I would have loved to stay longer) we left, he drove me home, kissed me good night, and left like a gentle men not begging for more, which was surprising but also a good thing (means hell get a treat tonight) lmao.

But that’s it, and he was right about what he said, that night was the best night of my life. And yes the dress was worth it. Write im getting back to me cookie dough. Enjoy it till tomorrow lol.

well i am now starting a diary.

today was a very boring day again, until............................................james decided to tex me, (ie. the boy who nearly raped me, but then apologised, we went out on a date, i became hes girlfriend, and now tonight wel be our 3rd date). well any way i was doing my college work and he texed me saying 'i should dress up tonight because hes taking me somewhere special.' so now im really excited, but have nothing to wear. ill have to lend something from my best friend!!!! hopefully shell be in plzzzzz..........

then the happiness had to end for something really wrong to happen. i had my out fit laid out on the bed incase my friend was not in. and my dog (a little lush golden retriever, 11 weeks old and as cute as ever) came in and crapped!!!!!!!!! on my clothes!!!!! (i really wish i had a dog who was puppy trained).

so i ran to the bus stop and caught that to my local shopping centre, the merry hill. and i was ver so pleased. the lovely green dress with the silk round the bottom was in the sale in diffusion!!!!!! so i had to buy it (it was still £120 thou, i hope tonight will be as special as he says).

then as i got back i had 4 missed calls on my answerin fone sayin she had loads of dresses she had hardly ever worn, (we are the same size, but shes picky bout her clothes). i was a bit upset about the money at first, but then i thought i love the dress, and this is our first date since becoming boyfriend and girlfriend so why not make it more special, it all sounds worthit.

so i have just had my lunch, (cheese and ham pasta in a sour sauce, sounds wrong but very nice), and washed up now im going to relax.

might be back before i leave for my date, but if not youll get all the juicey gossip in tomorrows diary day.

love sacha xxx

Today im moving on with my life!! I am still very upset about the way that my best friend acted but some ‘amazing space guy’ told me I should just get over it, so that’s what I am doing.

So last night I went out with a few of my friends for a night of fun. We went to a bar, it was mostly empty and we ordered a couple of drinks, we were about to pay for them when the bar tender said that the man at the end of the bar had already paid for them. So I looked over and it was like heaven sending angles to greet us. He was standing there with 2 other friends, and he was so hot!!! But as I have learned before its not about the looks, its got to be he’s personality that really takes you away.

So we all got talking and he seemed like a really amazing guy. Well after a while every one could see the connection we had so they eventually left us alone. We really had a great conversation but soon the bar was closing, I looked around but my friend shad already left with he’s friends, so now I had no way of getting home. So he asked me if I would like to go back to he’s for drinks, and then he would take me home. So I agreed what could be the harm, I was due for a night of fun. When we got back to he’s apartment he was so romantic. He complemented me constantly, he brought out a bottle of red wine, and he put on some romantic music, dimmed the lights and lit some sweet smelling candles. It was bringing this great night to a great end. We carried on talking for a while and then when we had finished the glasses of wine we also finished the next 2 bottles of wine. I was a bit tipsy now and so was he, I knew he couldn’t drive me home now and I had no number for a taxi. So he said that I could stay in the spare room, it was either that or find a nice skip, so I agreed.

So he showed me where the room was and just as I was about to go in he called me back, he grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me. It was so passionate and amazing; we were there for 20 minutes at least, deep in a trance. After he left I must have been in bed for about half hour thinking abut what had just happened, when all of a sudden he walked into the room naked!!!!!

I was so shocked, I was now staring at him taking no notice of, you know, he’s below area. He came to the bed, jumped on me and started to kiss my neck. I screamed and in he’s amazement he asked what was wrong. I said I wasn’t ready for this, and he apologised. He said he must have read the signs wrong. But I left any way and walked home.

But this mourning all I could think about was him, and now im still thinking about him, that is why im writing this. I really did get to know him, and did really like him. I just can’t stop wondering if I did lead him on, and if I should go and apologise????? Im so confused????

My like just goes from bad to worse!!!
Do you know what I should do??? Im so stuck….

well anyway we were at subway because the one near me has an internet link because my room mate is always on the internet at home. and i was doing my college work that i had stored on my memory stick, all of my work that i have been doing for the last two years. and in he comes my so called best friend. and he starts messing about so the manager has a go at him, so insted of apoligising he messes about more, so the manager says to me unless i can controll my friend i ahve to leave. i ask him to calm down because i really need to get some work done and he just messes about more. so we have a big row, he steals my memory stick and throughs it in the river. then he has the cheek to come in an act like he never did any thing.

i no i should get over it but i still relly miss him. i need someone to tell my problems to.

today was the day that did it all. today was the day i lost my best friend. well at least i thought of him as my best friend. i told him every thing, and im sure he told me every thing as well, now whos going to solve my problems.

well we arent always the best of friends were always fighting and hes always taking things from me, he always returns them but that aint the point.

but any way when we are alone we always get on, thats were the friend comes in, but hes other personality still pisses me off.

well anyway we were at subway because the one near me has an internet link because my room mate is always on the internet at home. and i was doing my college work that i had stored on my memory stick, all of my work that i have been doing for the last two years.......... ill b bk 2 tell u the rest of my problems, i have no1 else now, so dont worry.

hey every one!!!!!!

im new to blog an i would just like to say hey to you all.
so write me back and please some one add me as a friend

im so lonely!!!! lol